Hmmmm...it was a pretty hectic week for me.
Sumthin' came up...and it wasn't all dat pretty. I'm not gonna blame anybody for wutever dat has happened. To me, let it be a reminder to myself and the people who was involved in it to be a bit more careful wit wut you do and wut you know... It has also reminded me to my D.T.A attitude I had back then. D.T.A means Don't Trust Anybody...
I remembered sumone once told me dat... The only way to shut a GOD's creation called humans up is by rippin' their vocal chords out of their throats. But even dat might not work...cuz humans, as well all know too well...is very resourceful. They can still write, rite? So the best way...in my opinion is to juz simply terminate them. Well, it might sound a bit threatenin'...when you think 'bout it, huh? Hey, this is the Internet...I can write wutever dat I want in here. And I wouldn't call dat a threat...more like a strong suggestion......*wink
It's a good thing dat I'm the kind of person dat's always open for discussion...and I'm not the type dat would make any desicion without thinkin' it thoroughly. I dun like to jump into conclusion...never did and never will. Unless my instinct kicks into overdrive and I have to make a split-second-type desicions...
Damn...I got soooo many things to say here, I dun even know where to start... But one thing's for sure...I dun give a shit wut people think 'bout me. Wutever things dat I do...I do it for a reason.
DeADMAN's out...for now...
THinKiN' n ReAcTiN'
SaD + HaPPy = LiFe Pt. 2
I got a kinda bad news the other day... My cousin...my cousin dat is 6 days younger than me (no joke!!!) is diagnosed with a small hole in her heart... Noooo, it's not a hole left by a guy leavin' her or anythin'... This is serious... And now the doctor found out dat there's a blood clot in her lungs. I was surprised...very surprised. As a matter of fact, I was caught off-guard. I wasn't expectin' dat to happen to her. Nobody did... Hmmm...talk 'bout expectin' the unexpected, huh......
Uh, by the way...I bought the Metallica shirt last week... Hahaha... Off-topic, dun you think so... Well my brain is like a TV remote control. I can change the channel anytime...anywhere to any station dat I want to... Ask the BRoTHeRS...they know...
I finally got a chance to finish the compilation CD for J.N a couple of weeks ago... I put some slow rock songs for her. I'm tryin' to teach her to listen to the slow rock songs now... Hey, she have been listenin' to the same CD for quite sometime now... So, it's 'bout time for her to start to listen to some new songs for a change... It's kinda like the life itself... There will be the time when we're juz sick and tired of doin' the same shit over and over again... And there will come a time for us to do somethin' different just to spice up our lives a 'lil bit, rite!!! And to my surprise...she likes the same song dat I like... Yup, Metallica's Nothing Else Matters...
Then, there was the weekend. It was quite a fun weekend for me... I went out wit J.N on Friday. Bought a couple of nice clothes for her...I picked one and the other one was her choice... Surveyed a few things dat we plan to buy at the end of the month and then we went out for a meal. Hehehe...it was fun hanggin' out wit her. Later dat nite, I went out wit the BRoTHeRS and finally came home at around 1.30 in the mornin'... I'm so damn tired...but we still have time to play the PS2 for another couple of hours before I went to bed at 4 am!!! They continued playin' until about 5 or so, then they
went to sleep...
I went out again on Saturday nite to The Curve...and bought myself a Buster Optimus Prime!!!Woohooo!!! When I got back home, I was so FReAKISHLY happy. When I opened the box and started to work wit the toy, the BRoTHeRs looked at me and said that they haven't seen such pure honest joy in my face for a very long time... I juz smiled back at them...
Hehehe... Then, on Sunday...I went out again...wit them and bought a Bumblebee!!! Now, the set is nearly completed... I juz need to get Skids, Mudflap, Arcee Twins and maybe Jolt. Then, I'm done...hopefully...... Hahaha...
Uh, yeah... One of the things dat Me and J.N surveyed was figurines... I plan to buy one for her...but of course, she got to choose wich one she wants... Hehehe...
PIeCeS...oF Me...
Make me
Into the one you want, into the one you need you bend and
Break me
You watch me separate myself from who I really am
To fit into your plan
Take it
Whatever's left is only following routine and
Fake it
And give in to the thoughts that being bought is what I am
To fit into your plan
The wheels they turn for you, a deity for two.
Holding on it's true, won't bring it back again.
They way you look my friend it's closer to the end.
I'm holding out a hand to bring it back again.
You cut me up again, cut down
You cut me down
You're cutting me in two
And ripping me in three
You're killing with those words you say to me
Tearing me in two
And ripping me in three
How many pieces can you take from me
LiFe GOeS oN...I GUeSS......
Well, nothin' much happened this past couple of weekends... Watchin' TV all day long and I didn't realize it was 4 in the mornin'... The BrOTHeRS were here the other day...so dat was a bit different from the other weekend. I was plannin' to get some stuff the other day...well, I got some of it... Dat's good enuff for now. There's always tomorrow, rite...
Talkin' 'bout my BrOTHeRs...ChAcK is one hell of a PS addict... ZuL on the other hand, well...he'll try almost everythin'. But what I and ZuL agree on is dat we juz enjoy watchin' ChAcK kickin' ass in those games. We would built our own set of cars...and let ChAcK race it in Need For Speed. We created our own character in SmackDown! vs RAW and leave the rest to ChAcK. But seriously, ChAcK is crazy 'bout games... He would stay up all night just to finish the game or spend the whole night exploring it. I've seen it before and trust me when I say sumtimes I wonder how he can stay up all night and go to work the next day without missing a beat. Even I have to at least have a couple of hours of good sleep juz to rest my brain a bit.
Hmmm...our sets of cars... I juz remembered sumthin'!!! Eleanor... Uh, trust me when I say dat it has absolutely nuthin' to do wit a girl...seriously...... It's juz the name... If you've read my blog before...you'll know who she is... Hehehe
I got a post for a fren and by a fren...but I gotta put it on hold first. Come to think 'bout it, it's not the first time either. It would be the 2nd time I have to put a post on hold juz cuz it would affect a few people.
I was wit another fren the other day, SYaH... Went to uptown to get a few things for him. The normal guy stuff like t-shirts, casual shoes etc... Uh, yeah...and I bought a new Avenged Sevenfold t-shirt... Was thinkin' to get a Metallica t-shirt but I didn't bring enuff money. So, I'll settle for one...for now... Hehehe. Then after dat we went for a drink at the mamal stall juz 'round the corner. We were were enjoyin' the drinks, watchin' the wutever movie it was showing on the projector screen and I was answerin' some sms from another fren of mine.
And all of a sudden, he looked at me and said..."Bro, would you juz stop it? You need to stop doing' dis, man...". I was confused and I looked back at him wit a "What?...What the hell was dat about?"... Well, we laughed and I asked him again of what the hell was dat all about. Well, then he told me to stop being too nice to everybody... Hmmm...dat's all to sudden...dun you think so?!?!?! Yeah, even I was confused...
When I come to think 'bout it, he's right. I've been nice to a lot of people and most of the time...too nice. Maybe dat's juz me. But hey, I can be a mean and sadistic person too...not to mention heartless and cruel... But I haven't shown dat dark side of mine for a very long time, now. There's no reason for me to do so...
To tell the truth, he was actually worried 'bout me... Well dude, dat makes the three of you. ZuL n ChAcK is worried as well. They're worried cuz I'm gettin' older by the day but still, I'm all alone... Wit no one to call as a girlfren and all. Hahaha... It sounds a bit ridiculous and also make sense at the same time... They've known me for quite a while now...and trust me when I say dat they sure as hell know what they're talkin' 'bout...
When it comes to things like dis...I dun really know what to say 'bout it. The toughest desicion to make is when it involves the heart, feelings. It involves hopes, determination, sincerity and honesty... A desicion 'bout relationship. To be honest, I'm not a least bit scared of makin' up my mind in bein' committed to sumbody...seriously. It's juz dat I'm too damn scared of ever makin' the first move.
I believed dat I've mentioned it before in here dat I'm not afraid to do most everythin' dat anybody could throw at me...but when it comes to girls...... I would be the first to back down. I'll juz disappear in the crowd. I hate to admit it but I do have a serious case of the lack of self confidence.
To ZuL, ChAcK and SYaH...I'm one the kinds guy who would get to know juz 'bout everythin' of anythin' dat I like... But they're puzzled of why I'm not doin' the same thing when it comes to the girls I like...or juz girls as a whole. I know 'bout a car's specifications more than I know 'bout girls...
They told me dat in order for me to straighten up my life a bit...I gotta start searchin' for 'the one'. They say dat behind every great man...there's a great woman. Well, at least for now...I have My BRoTHeRs wit me. Dat's a start......
Well, I guess dat I'll be out...for now...
p/s - thanks for the people who left a comment on my previous posts. Nice to meet you too and yes, I'm fine...well, sort of... Hehehe