a GLiMpSe Of Me...

Hmmm...got into a fight wit my mum the other day. It was a misunderstandin'. Dun really wanna talk 'bout it...but I made her cried. And I cried too, a bit... Finally, after 15 years plus since the last time I cried... Never thought dat I would hurt the feelings of the person who patiently and excitedly carried me in her womb for 9 months. Never thought dat it took me to do dat to cry again... I felt sooo damn bad dat night... But, it's all good now... At least we understand each other better. The other bad thing is I know I made my dad cried too, several times over the course of my life... I always knew dat, and I did try to make it better him. I told you before dat I'm not perfect, rite...so please have a lil' patience for me...

For Mama n Baba...from me......

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving
but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

For the people out there...this is a rare occasion for you to have a glimpse of my 'other' side. Enjoy it, cuz you won't know when you'll get the opportunity to see it again... But always remember dat I'll do EVERYTHIN' for my parents. They are the best thing dat ever happenned to me...

HoNeSTy...yOu HaVe iT?

Let's play a game here......it's called 'Who Wants To Be A Superhero...'

On the other hand...boooorrrrrrrriiiiiiinnnnnnngggggggg...... They've already created a reality series for that...and it's the brainchild of Stan Lee. Dun know who Stan Lee is? Well, ever heard of The Incredible Hulk, The Fantastic Four...or Spiderman? He created all of them...and then some, which includes all the villains too.

"He gives without the thought of reward..." Qui-Gon Jinn... Have you ever wondered why Anakin was so pissed and why he became Darth Vader? Why he killed every Jedi in sight, why never cared 'bout anythin' else in this world except to eliminate all the Jedi in the known galaxy? It's because all this while...he's been giving without the thought of reward. That quote was spoken by Qui-Gon Jinn to Anakin's mother in Tattoine. Anakin helped the Jedis to get the parts they need to repair their ship, helped to defeat the Trade Federation and saves the day... And he became a Jedi after that... Soon, he with his Jedi Master, Obi Wan Kenobi and the other Jedis was goin' all over the galaxy to eliminate the Trade Federation's droid army... Later he was promoted to a Jedi Master himself and got his own apperentice. And he was secretly married to Senator Amidala. Everythin' was going well for him until...

He never asked for any rewards for any of the deeds that he did... but what did he get in return? His mother was killed by the Sand People... he was betrayed and manipulated by Senator Palpantine. The only time that he wished for a reward for all the thing dat he did, in the form of the well bein' of his wife...he was screwed...... He was lied to by Palpantine, The Emperor...the Sith Lord himself... For once, he wanted sumthin' for himself...and dat nearly killed him. He was bound in the life support suit forever... And since then...he is known as Darth Vader...the baddest Sith ever... And it all started cuz he juz wants sumthin' for himself...once in his lifetime......

I'm holdin' on to same code of ethics too. My parents have tought me well to never ask for anythin' in return for wutever things dat I do... They told me, dat wutever things dat I do...good or bad will have its own reward or punishment. If you dun get it now, you will soon...or you'll get it in the afterlife. They told me dat GOD is fair... be kind to people, and people will be kind to you. Be a bad guy, and people will be bad to you... Regardless...you will get wut's comin' to you......
The other things dat my parents tought me was...always be true to yourself & others and stand for wut is right... Never ever do anythin' wit any hidden agendas... Maybe others won't know your intention...but GOD knows...EVERYTHIN'... GOD know your deepest, darkest secrets dat you hide from others...and then some. If you know wut I mean... GOD knows the reasons of why you do the things dat you do...whether it's for the good or sumthin' else...

So, think deep...and think hard before you do anythin'... Think whether wutever dat you do... you do it because it's the right thing to do, or is it cuz you have sumthin' up your sleeves... Call me wutever you want... a son of a bitch, a bastard or wutever names and curses dat you can come up wit... I could care less 'bout it. At least I dun lie to myself...cuz lying to yourself is the worst thing dat you can do... It's like lying to GOD himself......

I help others cuz it's the right thing to do...not cuz of anythin' else... Somebody once told me... "Do the right thing at the right time...and do the things right..."

One more thing...Be honest to yourself... Cuz if you can't trust yourself, who else would do so...
Oh, yeah... wutever dat I wrote in here...it's from wutever dat I see in world today. But most importantly, it comes from the bottom of my heart. Always has and always will be... If anybody dun like it...well, you can always stop readin' and leave this page... Nobody forced to you to read it...

DeADMAN out...for now......

ALLAH IS WATCHIN'...ALWAYS......UNTIL THE END.

BiRTH-RiGhT iNsTiNcT

Why can't people juz live and let live!!! Could anybody let me live in peace for once and stop givin' me unnecessary headaches... Please understand that I have my own life to live here!!! Maybe not as good or as happennin' as some people......but at least...IT'S MY FReAKIN' LIFE!!! And please understand dat I have my own reasons for doin' the things I do. Its either I care 'bout you or I want you to learn from your GOD-given life... I dun simply do everythin' without knowing how and why I have to do it.

Stay inside tonite, vanish from my sight... You can't make it right...lost the final fight......

Restless tonite cuz I've wasted the light...Between both these times, I drew a really thin line. There's nothing I planned, and not that I can't...but you should be mine, across the line. I promise I might not walk on by...maybe next time but not this time. Even though I know,I don't wanna know. Yeah, I guess know,I just hate how it sounds.

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away for one thing...just for one thing. If I sorted it out, if I knew all about this one thing...Wouldn't that be something.

Yeah, dun we all wish dat we know 'bout 'dat' sumthin'...regardless of wut 'dat' is... Same wit me. Even when I'm not 100% earth-human...but still, I have a part of it in me... Maybe dat explains why my gut's instinct is strong(well, at least better than a normal human being)...especially when it comes to the people I care 'bout...

On another note, HaNie's birthday is tomorrow... 11th August to be exact. Happy Birthday my Miss Wutever...may you have a prosperous and a blessed life. You're one year older now...but you're still a lil' girl to me... Hehehe... Well normally when it's someone's birthday...I would just say "Congratulations...you're one year closer to death" but dats not good at all. It's fun though killing other people's joy... Hahahahaha...

Dun really have much to say nowadays... Maybe my brain is too tired to think...

DeADMAN out...

THe FaStInG aT HaNd

Tetibe aku terpikir pasal bulan Ramadhan a.k.a bulan puasa a.k.a bulan rahmat ALLAH tak lama lagi ni...(dalam sebulan lagi la lebih kurang) dan jugak bulan Syawal a.k.a bulan Hari Raya!!! Syukur, aku masih hidup untuk melalui lagi satu bulan Ramadhan, Insya Allah...dan harap-harap Insya Allah aku sempat sambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri... Dan aku jugak berharap untuk berjumpa lagi dengan satu lagi bulan Ramadhan tahun depan... Tapi buat masa sekarang ni, kite fokus dulu kat yang dekat-dekat ni...

Kalau ikut kalendar kuda (kalendar yang semua orang pun pakai, tak kire la korang kaya tahap mane sekalipun...tapi aku pakai kalendar Top Gear...ape kes?)Ramadhan akan start lebih kurang dalam 20 atau 21 Ogos ni... Hmmm...nak balik kampung ke tak? Last sekali aku balik pun ade la dalam bulan lepas...tu pun sebab ade kenduri untuk Allahyarhamah Tok aku... Kalau nak diikutkan...last sekali aku balik kampung masa Allahyarhamah Tok aku meninggal la... Bulan Jun tahun lepas. Aku tak nak panggil 'arwah' sebab 'arwah' tu ialah nama jin yang suka mengganggu budak kecik... Tok aku bukan jin...die orang... Kalau orang lain tu, aku tak tau la pulak, kan... Anywhuuu...back to our topic...Ramadhan......

Ramadhan ialah satu bulan yang dipenuhi dengan rahmat Allah SWT. Bulan turunnya Al-Quran kepada Nabi Muhammad SAW sebagai panduan untuk seluruh umat manusia. Bulan dimana pintu-pintu neraka akan ditutup dan pintu-pintu syurga dibuka seluas-luasnya. Para malaikat akan turun ke bumi dan menemani mereka-mereka yang membuat amal kebajikan. Hijab antara langit dan bumi akan dibuka untuk doa-doa para muslimin dan muslimat sampai kepada ALLAH tanpa apa-apa sekatan... Bulan dimana ALLAH akan mengampunkan dosa-dosa umat nya dan mengabulkan doa-doa mereka... Masjid akan meriah dengan para jemaah menunaikan sembahyang sunat Terawih selama 30 malam dan setiap satu malam mempunyai kelebihan yang tersendiri... Seronok sehhh... Tapi bebudak la seronok, tunggu time moreh...pastu kutip makanan. Tapi bukan bebudak je buat camtu...orang tua pun same gak. Sembahyang nye tidak...tetibe time moreh, ramai pulak...

Tapi malam yang paling ditunggu-tunggu oleh semua ialah Malam Lailatur-Qadar. Malam dimana seluruh para malaikat dari ketujuh-tujuh langit akan turun ke bumi dan memberkati orang-orang terpilih serta menerangi malam itu dengan 'nur' mereka. Malam dimana malaikat-malaikat sendiri akan berdoa untuk manusia dan membawa doa-doa manusia kepada ALLAH. Macam-macam yang aku pernah dengar pasal malam Lailatul-Qadar ni... Ade yang nampak pokok-pokok bersujud ke arah kiblat di Mekah, air berukar jadi ais, masjid tetiba ramai dengan orang yang penduduk kawasan tu sendiri tak pernah jumpa... Hehehe...Malaikat la tu, agaknya...

Puasa ialah menahan lapar dan dahaga serta perkara-perkara yang membatalkan puasa dari terbit fajar Saadiq hingga terbenam matahari. Puasa bukan sekadar mengajar manusia untuk tahan lapar, tetapi menguji kesabaran manusia dan mengingatkan mereka kepada orang-orang yang kurang bernasib baik... Bulan ni jugak macam-macam dugaan dan cubaan akan ALLAH turunkan untuk menguji manusia... Tapi kalau ade yang lemah semangat tu...nampak budak-budak minum air sirap pun boleh ke lauuut puasanya...memang 'out' la... Time ni la, ada je makhluk yang nak bagi kite naik hangin...seolah-olah mintak dibelasah sampai separuh mati menggunakan Hikmat Tapir Terulung Membelah Bumi!!! Hahaha... Tapi walau ape pun...kita kena belajar untuk bersabar kerana kesabaran tu akan dibalas dengan pahala yang berganda dari ALLAH.

Nikmat untuk orang-orang yang berpuasa ni ialah masa berbuka puasa... Itu ialah nikmat yang diberikan oleh ALLAH di dunia untuk mereka... Sebagai ucapan 'Tahniah' kerana telah berjaya mengharung satu hari yang penuh dengan dugaan dan cubaan. Time tu yang best... Tetibe je rasa air sirap tu ialah benda paling best dalam dunia ni...hehe... Lagi satu pulak...Pasar Ramadhan... Masa ni la korang akan nampak kuih-muih atau pun lauk-pauk yang tak kan ade time bulan tak puasa...tiap-tiap tahun pun camtu...tiap-tiap tahun, ade je kuih atau lauk baru... Semua pun nampak sedap...beli berbakul-bakul, tapi makan sikit je dah kenyang...pastu yang lain tu, kengkadang dibuang jek... Ha, tu pun dah lari dari konsep. Bulan puasa ni mengajar kesederhanaan dan tidak membazir...bukannya beli macam nak buat kenduri, tapi yang tukang makannye ade la 2-3 orang... Aku pulak, bile pegi pasar Ramadhan tu...pegi dengan tangan kosong, balik pun camtu gak... Aku tak tau nak beli hape. Sudahnya aku pegi 7 Eleven, beli air kotak ngan roti kaya... Tanya kengkawan aku kalau tak percaya... Aku 'fail' skit bab beli-beli kuih ni...maybe bukan 'fail' skit la tapi 'fail' banyak!!! Hahaha... Aku ni bukan manusia bumi, so pepaham la ek... Masa aku duduk ngan family aku dulu, bapak aku yang selalu pegi pasar ngan mak atau adik-adik aku...aku jarang ikut...so aku tak tau nak beli ape la... Biasanya aku akan tolong mak aku siapkan table pastu hidang kuih or lauk sebelum time berbuka... Hey, I spend more time wit my mum in the kitchen than my other family member...sebab tu tu mak aku sayang lebih kat aku!!! Dan sebab tu jugak la aku agak pandai memasak...hehe...
Aku pernah la merasa berbuka ngan air sejuk je...atau pun ngan rokok semata-mata... Harap-harap tahun ni takde la camtu. Insya Allah... Masa tu memang aku takde duit sungguh. Rokok tu pun aku beli 2 hari sebelum tu...air sejuk tu pun nasib baik je, sebab ade la air botol aku kat umah tu... Hari tu, aku sahur ngan air botol tu jugak la... Macam bapak aku, kengkadang aku dah terbiasa sahur hanya sekadar ngan air sejuk...so tak kisah la... Heh, memories...

Macam-macam kelebihan dalam bulan ni...terpulang pada korang samada nak rebut peluang atau tak... Aku akan cuba sebaik mungkin untuk dapatkan keberkatan sebanyak mungkin... Ye la...mana tau aku tak sempat nak jumpa bulan Ramadhan lagi sekali tahun depan... Cuma yang aku sedih skit ialah bile kebanyakkan orang sekarang ni cuma buat amal kebajikan time bulan puasa jek... Time ni la diorang nak sembahyang ke, hape ke... Kebanyakkan mereka seolah-olah menggunakan bulan ni untuk cover balik untuk 11 bulan yang lepas punya perangai... Dalam bulan ni je la yang diorang stop pegi clubbin', minum arak atau pun ape-ape yang sewaktu dengannya. Habis je puasa...belasah balik... Ni mana punya mazhab yang diorang ikut ni... Lantak korang la... Nanti kalau aku cakap lagi kang, korang kata aku busybody...kubur lain-lain...bla bla bla... Lantak korang la...masing-masing ada otak, kan...

So, wit dat bein' said...it's juz 'bout another month to go (well...less than a month actually...) for us to start to learn how to control ourself from doin' sumthin' very stupid dat would jeopardize your fast... And 'bout another month for us to learn to be a better person than we are right now... Wutcha waitin' for? Start NOW!!!

HaLL-AiM a.k.a DeADMAN a.k.a GaBaNz out...for now......

WeRK N ToYs!!!

I juz wanna say... Finally, I'm gettin' busy...wit a whole lot of workloads. GOOD... Hahaha
So, I might not be able to update dis blog as often as I want it... Ah, who cares...it's not like the all people 'round the world is readin' wutever dat I wrote in here... THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND ME...OR YOU!!! Dun think dat wutever dat I've wrote in here is 'bout you. It's not 'bout anybody...but it's 'bout everybody dat is alive at dis moment... GET IT!!! I may not have a lot of frenz...but I do know a lot of people... Go figure...

Went out wit SiTa dis past week...and took eZaNe out to ToYs R' uS... It should've been the week before dat...but after wut happened to baby eRiN, we postphoned it to dis past week. Yeay, finally got a chance to use my ToYs R' uS card for the toys...hahaha. Yeah, I do have the ToYs R' uS Star Card...so wut!?!?! Jealous?! Go fuck yourself, ok... Anywhuuu...we bought eZaNe AuToBoT ChRoMiA and DeCePtIcOn RaVaGe. And I found out dat RaVaGe is kinda cool...one of the best toys dat have dis movie-accurate design... Faithful to it's CGi design. Definately in my 'To Buy' list at the end of the month. Hehehe. I'm not gonna buy Optimus Prime, yet...I'll wait for 'Buster Optimus Prime'. The current Leader Class Optimus Prime is good, but with the blade concealed...hands and arms movements are a bit resricted. Also need to buy Human Alliance BumbleBee, Human Alliance SideSwipe, Ironhide, Ratchet, Skids and Mudflap (the twins), Arcee twins and maybe...Constructicons......

I should have the complete set maybe before Hari Raya...which got me wondering...should I buy a new baju raya or juz stick to last year's Baju Melayu and jeans... Hmmmm... Actually, I couldn't even remember when wuz the last time I bought a Baju Melayu for Hari Raya. I've been using the same 2 Baju Melayu for the past 5 years or so... My mum have been buggin' me to get a new one for a long time... Uh, well...we'll see... I'm thinkin' 'bout doin' sumthin' different this Hari Raya..but, again...we'll see......

ShAhRiL is finally back from Labuan...and SiTa is freakishly happy. She couldn't stop smiling since we got the news a couple of days ago... We picked him up at KLIA yeaterday and took him to see his kids...he's happy too... It's understandable. They haven't seen him for 2 months...and they dun know when he's goin' away again or when he'll be back... I can't really say dat I fully understand how it feel to not see your loved ones for a long period of time. I do know how it feels but not entirely... Well, have been there and done dat...in my own way......

My rotational shift starts this week... The first one starts at 8.30 am and the next one starts at 11.30 am. No issue there...I've been in the graveyard shift before, so...again......no issue. Well, at least I get the chance to wake up a lil' bit late than usual... Finally got my salary a couple of days ago...and paid the overdued house-rent and for the car. And I have 'bout 100 bucks left for me...for the rest of the month. Looks like I'm gonna have to survive by juz eatin' biscuits... Hehehe... I've survived once...why can't I do it again. KaRmA at work, I guess...

AnOTHeR LiST and THeN SoMe...

I've been doin' sum thinkin' for the past month or two and dis is wut I wanna do wit my car if I have the money...

1- Engine transplant...new 1.5 4G91 or a Mitsubishi 2.0 V6 engine... No turbo...dun really like it, unless it comes together wit the new engine

2- New manual transmission or a gated automatic tranny for the V6. Hey, if the engine is 2.0 and above...I would prefer an automatic transmission. To me, you're a sissy if you drive a car wit an automatic tranny if it's anything lower than 2.0... Even my dad drives a 1.8 manual...

3- New paint-job. Metallic Silver or Gunmetal Silver

4- Re-upholstered interior. Civilized combination of black, silver and red...

5- Custom dashboard layout including gear lever, arm rest and everythin' in between...

6- Super-charger...if there's no factory-installed turbo-charger. I love the sound of a super-charged engine...

7- Gunmetal colored 6 spoke 16 or 17 inch rim wit low profile tyres. No deep-dished rims or a spinner...I hate it... Uh, yeah...wider track for better stability and handling

8- 15 inch Ventilated Cross-drilled brakes for front and rear

9- Black Leather Recaro sports seats wit red inserts and stiches for front seat...and matchin' leather for the rear seat

10- Customized GTi door panel with black leather inserts and red stiches

11- GTi-like wheel arches integrated to the front fenders and quarter panels, also wit GTi sideskirts. I'll give the car a widebody appeareance...

12- Double twin tip exhaust like a VW's Golf GTI or BMW's M3... Of course, it have to start from the extractor...and maybe the outlet will be integrated into the rear bumper...

13- V Design front bumpers with bonnet...and completed wit GTi spoiler and customized GTi rear bumper

14- New wiring for the whole car which includes safety alarm for security...

15- Some minor modification on the front facia...as if Proton would do a facelift concept on Satria... I have the picture in my head...

16- Adjustable absorbers for both front and rear suspension wit stabilizer bars for the whole car

17- 4 speakers Pioneer Sound System. I dun like my car to be a boom box...it's a car, not a friggin' mobile disco!!!

18- Pioneer DVD/CD/MP3/WMA Player/USB/Radio wit Remote Control and an integrated Bluetooth handsfree unit for my phone...

19- Black leather wrapped steering wheel wit red stiches to match the interior

20- Sound-proofing for the whole car for a quieter cabin

21- Auto-flip side mirror with switches integrated in the door panel

22- Modified rear bonnet insipred by Satria Neo's rear bonnet

23- Autobot insignia replacing the Proton's Tiger emblem (but still in the shield's outline)...also on the middle of the steering wheel!!! SILVeRSIDe...roll out!!!

I belive dat it would complete the 'sleeper-car' look. A balanced interior and exterior upgrades... Comfortable enuff for my daily drive wit all the creature comfort and juz nice if I feel like I wanna drive fast... Dat's good enuff for me...and I'm sure dat it's sumthin' dat my parents wouldn't mind being driven in... But...I want a black with ghost style race stripes 2010 Ford Mustang Shelby GT500KR!!! ...and a DeLorean DMC12 wit a few modification (as the original version is under-powered and there's a few other glitches goin' on wit it)...

I belive dat it would complete the 'sleeper-car' look. A balanced interior and exterior upgrades... Comfortable enuff for my daily drive wit all the creature comfort and juz nice if I feel like I wanna drive fast... Dat's good enuff for me...and I'm sure dat it's sumthin' dat my parents wouldn't mind being driven in...

Oh, God...two straight entries in a form of a list... Gotta stop doin' dis...looks like I'm gettin' lazier than ever. Hehehe......but then again, there are a few people dat complained dat my entries in the blog is as long as a novel... Uh, well...wutever.

Wutever... Hmmm...dat reminds me of a certain sumbody dat I wanna meet but......dat sumbody is not answerin' the phone. It could be dat the person is busy, who knows... I'll try again soon... I wonder how she's doin'? How are you, my lil' Ms. Wutever? Hehehe...

Suddenly I feel like I wanna take the kids out to the zoo...I dun know why but I have to admit dat I do enjoy goin' out and spendin' my time wit them... Maybe I'll take them out at the end of the month. Of course, their mothers need to come along to... You dun expect me to take care of all of them all by myself, do you? My lil' Qistina have already went to the zoo a couple of months back wit her mum and my cousinz...so, I'll take her sumwhere else... Wanted to take her to Sunway Lagoon, but my aunt is workin' at SunwayMas as a developer, so she can go there anytime...for free, or at least pay the ticket like half price or sumthin'...and it's not like she's never been there before......

I'm lookin' at my schedule for dis week...and there's a lot of Trainin'/Meetin' dat I need to attend. Same goes for next week...and I gotta start lookin' through the internal system for the support request and everythin' related to it... Heh, I'm gonna be really busy...as there's so much to learn. I'll make it fun...it's juz me... Speakin' 'bout fun...we had dis event done on Wednesday wit the recyclin' and goin' green thingy... It's 'bout Cost Saving by Recycling. There was a few activities arranged for us from creatin' stuff from recycled materials, telematch, quiz to certificate-givin' ceremony... It's a good a way for me to mix 'round and get to know my team members better.

I'll be back...soon......

My TuRn...

I'm doin' dis juz cuz SiTa has been buggin' me to do it since last week... So, here goes......

1- Some of my frenz forgot wut my full name is... They only call me using my nick...GaBaNz

2- I drive kinda recklessly when I'm alone in the car, but not when there's sumbody else... Safety reasons.

3- But most of the time I'm a 'relaxed' kinda driver... I think I've juz contradicted my self...ah, sukati aku laaaa

4- I love cars... Coupes, muscle cars, hot hatches, hot rods...you name it...

5- I'm a fan of Transformers since I was 4 years old

6- The Undertaker made his 1st official WWE (then WWF) appearence at Survivor Series at the exact date of my 8th birthday

7- I have semi-photographic memory

8- I dun really talk much like my dad...but when I do talk, I talk a lot...like my mum

9- I listen to Metallica, Alterbridge, Nightwish, Avenged Sevenfold, DragonForce, Apocalyptica, Coal Chamber, Korn etc...

10- I love rock song...but occasionally I listen to slow music, acoustics and neo-clasiccal

11- I love guitars but can't play 'em...anymore... Not even 'gitar kapok'......

12- I only concentrate on football once every 4 years... The WORLD CUP

13- I love wrestling... WWE RULES!!! People will say it's fake... But I know dat most of the things is fixed, but not faked. How can you fake a 20 feet fall off a ladder onto a table and the concrete floor?

14- I have a straight line across my right palm... My mum always reminded me not to hit anybody using my right hand...

15- I've lost my family members to chronic diseases... Diabetes, heart attack, cancer and stroke...

16- I'm the 1st born in my family and also the 1st grandson to my late grandparents on my mum's side. I've got 'special privilages' with my aunts and uncles... Hehehe...

17- I love kids...especially twins...

18- I've been using the same handphone for the past 3 years... Yup, I know...gotta get a new one...

19- I've been using the same mobile number since I 1st got myself a handphone

20- The only number dat I memorize from my phone is my dad's mobile number...seriously. I dun even remember my home-phone number...

21- I hate Math... I never scored 'A' in Math. But then again I never got a 'B', 'C' or even 'D'...dat's how bad I am wit Math.

22- I like guns and swords... Samurai's katana is my favourite. Made from 'tamahagane' steel...

23- I collect Transformers...but never had one as a kid... So when I got my 1st pay in McDonald's...I went out and bought one for me. It costs me 169.90... Hehehe

24- One of my dream car is the DeLorean DMC-12

25- I dun really know how to draw although I majored in Animation

26- Another one of my dream car is the new Ford Mustang 2010 GT500KR...

27- Learned my way in KL by getting lost around town

28- Hates hip-hop artists dat take other people's song and make it as their own. eg.Sean Kingston (stole Led Zeppelin's song) and P.Diddy (stole Sting's song)...dat guy couldn't even make up his mind on his name...

29- Puposely make fun out of myself just to make people laugh

30- Not grossed out by blood...at all. I love blood, weirdly enuff...

31- I dun own a motorcycle licencse. I know how to ride 'em but my dad dun really like it...so, go figure......

32- The 1st album I bought was Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers - The Movie's Official Soundtrack. Hey, I was a kid back then...

33- My 1st rock album was Search's RoCk 'N' RoLL Pie - LiVe 'N' LoUd in Stadium Merdeka...

34- Have dis 'thing' wit all sorts mythical creatures like Griffins, Phoenix, Dragons etc. I believe dat they exist...

35- I love KoKo KrUnCh!!!

36- I slouch...and SiTa hates it...

37- I love Vanilla with Choc Chip ice cream...especially when you put some raisins in it...

38- Spaghetti is my favourite Italian dish... Pepperoni pizza too!!!

39- I know how to use a bow and arrow... Used to do some archery a few years back...

40- Hates POSeRS and WANNABeeS!!!

41- I like CHiPsMoRe!!!

42- I can read when the text is upside down

43- I used to be in my school brass band...playing trumpet... Hehehe

44- I went to one of the last Sudirman's concert... He passed away 2 weeks after dat...

45- Strangely enuff...I find dat baby tapir and piglets are cute... Weeeiiirrrdddd!!!

46- I like girls wit short hair...not so short, about shoulder length. Like SiTa's hair...and when I told her dis, she said "Awww, you're so sweet..." And I cringed...she laughed at me like hell after dat...... Hated it...

47- I love P. Ramlee movies... My dad owns a mug dat list down every single movie dat he acted and directed!!!

48- I would like to participate in a bungee jumpin' event...or parachutin'. It looks fun...

49- I only wear a ring on my middle finger...speakin' of which, I need to get myself a ring... Used to wore one, but it was a long time ago...

50- I have an army-like dog-tag with my name on it...but sumbody took it from me...

51- I wear wrist watch on my right hand...then again, it been a long while since I last used one

52- I like to take off my shoes when I'm in the office. I juz walk around wit my socks...

53- I've never been in a train before...I even only got a chance to fly in an airplane recently. Before dat, never been in one too!!!

54- I make it a point everyday to start my day by saying sumthin' nice...or at least a smile... My day will only start after dat...

55- My mum always complaints dat my handwritin' is too small...even when I use capital letters only... Well, maybe it is...

56- I only get sick if my mum is angry at me...seriously!!!

57- I always put other's needs before my own...but I'm trying to balance it out with my own needs first. While not being selfish in the process.

58- I have dis 2 frenz dat is more or less like me but they are more humane than me... ZuL and ChAcK. They are like my 2 big brothers dat I never had...

59- I'm the most child-like between the 3 of us... The so-called lil' brother... Hehehe... And I'm the shortest in the bunch...damnnnn......

60- Each one of us have our own 'theme song'... But collectively we use Evolution Theme by Motorhead or D-Generation X Theme. Hehehe

61- I read wayyy faster than I can talk...I enjoy readin' all sorts of articles and books...

62- I dun go clubbin'...and I dun drink too...

63- I find dat crocodiles and sharks are a beautiful creature... Two of the best adapted predators in the animal kingdom...

64- I enjoy watchin' Cartoon Network, Disney Channel, Discovery Channel, Discovery Turbo, National Geographic, History Channel and Animal Planet...

65- One of my favorite website is Wikipedia.com... You can find information to almost anything in there... Go ahead, try it.

66- I dun really like vegetables. There's only a few types dat I eat...baby corn, carrots, corn seeds anddd...dat's 'bout it... But, I'll juz probably eatmost of it when everythin' is mixed together...

67- I dun eat the 'curry' in currypuffs... I'll eat it if they substitutes the potatoes, chicken and the curry with sardines... I've been doin' dat since I was a little kid, so when my mum makes currypuff she'll make some 'special' puffs for me... Hehehe... She'll still do it now if I asked her too...

68- I only sing when I'm alone...or wit sumbody dat I'm comfortable wit... It's not dat I have a good voice, anyway...

69- I can't really swim...even when I used to live very near to the beach, back in Butterworth...

70- I never had any girlfrenz in school...

71- I used to be terrified wit girls... Uh, wait...maybe I still am... Dat explains a lot...hmmmm. But I know dat I've changed a lot...

72- I'm rentin' an apartment all by myself... It's easier...for my mum and dad to come visit and lepak while they're in town...

73- I'll do anythin' for my parents... They are the only thing dat I have in dis world... I might not be the perfect son, but to me...my parents are the best there was, the best there is...and the best dat there will ever be......

74- I'm very close to my uncle...my mum's youngest brother. He's more like a brother than an uncle to me... He's alwayyys nags at me for not praying... I know, I know...he's doin' the right thing...

75- I would love to have a lot of money...but then again, who doesn't!!!

76- I'll buy my family a mansion if I'm rich... So, all of us can live together... When I say all of us, dat means my aunts and uncle from both sides of the family and my cousins... I'll be very, very happy...

77- I'm closer to my cousins than I am wit my own siblings... Hate to admit it but it's true...and I'm not proud of it...

78- I'm like my dad in a way... It's hard for both of us to show emotions...especially to each other. But I know we love each other to the death and beyond...

79- I got a fooseball table... My frenz gave it to me... Thanks Ali n Joanna...hehehe

80- I always know the things I want to know and people wouldn't expect me to know... It's just sumthin' dat I've had since God knows when... The informations juz came to me... Sumtimes I know too much...

81- I dun really listen to my own advise... Badddd...

82- In my court...everybody is guilty until proven innocent...

83- I annoy some of my frenz wit the things I know... Especially when they want to brag 'bout wut they know, and then I turn the table around. Well, at least it teaches them not to brag... Hehehe

84- I will learn everythin' there is to know 'bout sumthin' if I like dat sumthin'. ZuL once gave me a DragonForce's song...a week after dat when I saw him again, I know wut's their 1st single is called, who's the band member, how many album they've had, their influence etc... He looked at me and said "...it was a big mistake giving you the song cuz I dun even know who's the vocalist..." Hahaha...

85- I'm a very patient guy...too patient. Some of my frenz calls me a tickin' time bomb...they're right.

86- I dun like confrontation - verbally and physically...and some people calls me a pussy cuz of dat. Well, I juz dun like it...first, bad words... Then fist-fight and the next thing you know, bodies are flying everywhere... It won't end until sumbody's dead... Boooorrrriiiinnngggg!!!!!! I'd rather sleep...

87- If I have to fight...I'll make sure dat I'm gonna win.

88- I believe in KaRmA...wut goes around, comes around...

89- I wanna meet my maker in one piece and in peace...

90- I love to prove to people dat they're wrong...especially when they make assumption on me, or think they know everythin'. So, dun tempt me...

91- I once walked home from my office cuz I only have coins in my pocket...I dun even have my ciggies wit me at dat time... I was broke...

92- I have no idea why am I doin' all of dis...

93- I know the correct technic on how to stop your heart from beatin' with one strike...

94- I've punched right through a door in anger... Cracked my fingers after dat...

95- I've never been to any martial arts classes in my life...

96- I've been in 5 trafic accidents since I got my driving license... I broke my dad's record...he had......NONE!!!

97- I think I've must have hit my head too many times to be as crazy and retarded as I am today...

98- I'm single... No, I'm not gay and I'm VERY sure of dat!!! It's juz dat...I can seem to understand girlz dat well...

99- I'm not scared of heights...at all!!!

100- I'm from the planet earth...juz not on earth... Figure dat out...

So, dat's it... 100 things 'bout me... Not all dat good but, hey...dat's me. I'm not perfect and neither does anybody else in this world. We complete each other in one way or another... Dat's juz wut us, humans do......

DeADMAN out...for now......

SiTa - 101... a CrAsH CoUrSe!!!

Started out just for fun and now it's like a competition... Who would come out on top with the most facts. She started wit 20, I amped it up to 30. Then I made it up to 55......and now, we agreed to stop at a 100. Hehehe...

Things you need to know 'bout my fren (a.k.a my sis, SiTa)

1- Loves GREEN... green shirts, green pants, green sandals, green dis...green dat......

2- Tells everybody dat her boyfren is GeRALD BuTLeR a.k.a KiNG LeONiDaS from the movie 300 (she watched it like a gazillion times...)

3- Have dis 'thing' wit real man in real uniforms... No, not you guys wearing PLuS or PrOPeL overalls...
4- Scared of talking in public

5- Never finishes her ciggy... It's always halfway or 3/4 finish...then she threw it away and light another one

6- Likes to complains and wonder how she could finish a 20 pack ciggy so fast (refer the above statement)

7- Actually falls in love with Optimus Prime... She said she felt so secured when Optimus is around......

8- Always callin' me a 'WeIRDO' (and dis is comin' from somebody who fell in love wit Optimus Prime... oh, how comfortin'!!!)

9- The easiet way to scare the shit out of her is by putting her in a small room without any windows and the doors locked

10- LOVeS HeR FAMILY MORe THAN ANYTHIN' eLSe IN THE WORLD (2 beautiful kids and 1 responsible husband)

11- Don't like to be forced to do anythin', especially things she hates to do

12- Needs her daily dose of coffee or nescafe at every meal

13- Can actually kick people's ass!!! She did it once, when she was pregnant wit baby eRiN... Pissin' her off, especially when she's pregnant is a bad move dudes...

14- Talks with a ReDNeCK HiLLBiLLy accent

15- Owns a car but dun know how to drive it

16- Never finishes her driving course...and did you know dat she took it more than once...... (I got dis from her mom...hehehe)

17- Belives in the sanctity of marriage

18- Loves clubbin' with her sister and cousins

19- Has a handphone with a built-in torchlight...or is it a torchlight wit a built-in handphone...... Hmmmm...I wonder......

20- Loves to watch 'chick-flicks'

21- Enjoys 'lepak-ing' wit frenz after work at the mamak stall

22- Hates me cuz I hate veggies (it's the green thingy...dun ask......)

23- Once bought her husband a superbike

24- Very down-to-earth kinda person

25- Listens to soppy malay love songs played by bands who sounds like men with no testicles

26- Never thought of license plate dat would reflect her until I suggested PAS174...which is her name (in a way)

27- Never actually used Yahoo Messenger until we started workin' together

28- Burps loudly like a friggin' toad but she can't burp the 'ABC'!!!

29- Enjoys goin' out and buyin' DVDs (both originals and pirated...)

30- Thinks dat BDSM is some sort of a foundations dat provides insurance... (Oh GOD, have mercy on her poor soul...)

31- Say dat she won't scream at me but when I told her dat I was involved in an accident, 0.5 seconds later... 'WHAAATTTTTT!!!!!'

32- Cried when Optimus Prime died in the original Transformers:The Movie

33- Looks like a nerd when she wear glasses

34- Said my ass is as big as hers

35- Favourite sentences / words..."...really...you don't sayyyyy...", "eeewww..." (after LAUGHIN' at sumthin' gross...)

36- Laugh like a hyena (or like a boy as she likes to say it...)

37- She's blurr......especially when people talk 'bout sumthin' dat doesn't interest her

38- Laugh everythime I say "People are dead, families have been destroyed...TIME TO GeT MOVIN'!!!"

39- Can't even find her handphone or house keys or lipstick or her MP3 player when she's really lookin' for it... Yup, it only happen to herrrrr......

40- Calls me a pussy cuz I didn't go wit her into a lingerie shop

41- Talks crap in circles...but in the end it make sense... Barely...

42- Always wearin' 3/4 jeans when she goes out wit me

43- Hates sharing food wit people...but always eats off my plate......

45- Buggin' me 'bout her hair... "...should I color it, or maybe cut it...wut 'bout if I straighten it..."

46- Doesn't watch porn...ANYMORe!!!!!!

47- She's a neat-freak... Everythin' should be nice and tidy or she'll go beserk

48- Likes Issey Miyake perfume...which reminded me of someone. She didn't buy it cuz she's scared if it'll offend me...

49- Have this strange fetish wit SHOWER CReAMSSSS!!!

50- She snores...and once, I recorded it...

52- Accidentally called her Nobita when I saw this McDonald's Happy Meal toy featurin' Doraemon... She threw a hissy fit...or in simpler words, she was so damn pissed

53- She carries herself well dat she doesn't need people promotin' her or tee-ing her up in any way whatsoever... Dat is wut I call FINeSSe...

54- Bugs the shit outta me by sayin' I need to get laidddd...badly......

55- Can be simplified in one word - ReTARDeD!!!

56- Loves it when I cringe everytime she says "Bro, you're so sweet..."

57- Laughs everytime I do an impersonation of Hj. Bakhil

58- Calls me a pussy cuz I dun like confrontation... Well, I juz dun like it...first, bad words... Then fist-fight and the next thing you know, bodies are flying everywhere... It won't end until sumboy's dead... Boooorrrriiiinnngggg!!!!!! I'd rather sleep...

59- Enjoys P. Ramlee movies (one of the few things we share in common...)

60- Can talk absolute nonsense and rubbish all damn day... (another one of our similarities)

61- Can't stand it when I make a noise which sounds like I'm gonna puke. She'll cover her mouth or she'll take the 'Minyak Cap Kapak'and put it 'round her nose. The smell of the oil helped her in not puking there and then... Hey SiTa... BLLLUUUEEERRRKKKK!!!!!!

62- Calls me gay cuz I dun have any girlfren

63- Makes fun 'bout my 'virginity'

64- Thinks I'm from another planet cuz she said I dun eat the 'normal' food dat earthlings eats... Well, you know wut...she might actually be right!!!

65- Enjoys listening to musics played in clubs... To me its juz pointless meandering zombie noise played by pseudo spiritual lunatics who thinks wind-chimes are a musical instrument...

66- Says dat I'm a terrible shoppin' partner but enjoys shoppin' wit me...

67- Sumtimes contradicts herself (read the above statement...)

68- Hates the shit out of 'WANNABEESSS'

69- Don't know dat her mum actually like the CoKe+SpRiTe+OrAnGe+StRaWBeRRy drink dat I always order everytime we go to McDonald's. Well, now...you know......

70- Enjoys 'Burger King'

71- Says dat I listen to weird and rock songs...but doesn't know dat I listen to Gary Moore's 'Still Got The Blues' and 'Parisienne Walkways'

72- Would 'do' AdAm LaMBeRt even when he's a gay...

73- Beat me in a card game...juz cuz I didn't know how to play... And she brags 'bout it...damnnnn......

74- Gets on my nerve when she never listens to me...unless she wants to...

75- Always leave her things inside my car...sunglasses, phone a.k.a torchlight etc...

76- Said dat I looked better with my glasses off...but I dun really believe her cuz...she's 'rabun' too!!!

77- Calls me M.C.P cuz I berates 'bout women drivers... Well, they don't know how to park properly, never stays in the slow lane when they're driving like 40km/h, switches lanes without giving any signal and they do the same too when turning into a junction... Most of 'em are actually endangering other road users when they're driving!!!

78- A sister dat I wish I had...
79- Sumtimes wear the same color clothes as mine

80- Looks foward to spendin' time with me everyday after work...me too. It makes life more tolerable......

81- Bugs me when she needs sumbody to talk too...or when she's juz plain bored

82- Calls me a fly and said she's a leech...

83- Never lets any dull moment to raise its ugly head when we're havin' fun together

84- Wants to go to Tuscani, backpackin'...but prefer Maranello... Cuz there's a certain factory I would like to see...Ferarri, 'nuff said

85- Calls me a geek cuz I like to surf WiKiPeDiA...but ends up using it as well. GEEKKK!!!

86- Gets angry when she saw her name in my phone is 'SiTa ChAcHaT'...and then laughs at it...

87- Wets herself everytime she's in the lift with eIzLan YuSoF... Hey, grow up will ya......

88- Have no idea why we're doin' this to each other...

89- Enjoys buggin' the shit out of me by askin' my blog's password so she can edit my grammatical error......

90- Hates it when people bully me or makes fun of me

91- Actually failed to restrain herself from calling me names, cursing me and makin' fun at me...not even for 1 friggin' hour. Yep, she lost the bet......

92- Offered her services to get me a girlfren...(which I dun really need, but still she wants to do it...)

93- Soooo dammmnnnn STUBBOORRRNNN!!!...sumtimes...

94- Hates it how sum people dun understand a simple "NO!". Dat'll get her pissed in 2 seconds...

95- Another way of scaring the living daylights out of her is by giving her...an innocent looking cockroach... Hahahaha

96- Hates me when I nag at her...and vice versa......

97- Gets annoyed when I asked her to think...she's juz to lazy to think 'bout anythin' sumtimes. And obviously...I have to do all the thinkin' for her...

98- She can't get past one day without a proper shower

99- Definately a morning person...talks a lot in the morning, but then again...she does it all the time all damn day......

100- quite protective on me...though she won't admit it... It's the 'big sis, lil' bro thingy'

Finally it's done... Uh, well...it was fun. Count properly and you'll see there's actually 101 things...literally SiTa 101...

There's still a lot dat we need to learn 'bout people, especially ourselves. It's juz an on-going thing dat will never stops until the day ends...... She's actually doin' the same thing for me on her blog. She said dat we're two kindred spirits...wutever dat means... Go ahead and read it...

"Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken,Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong,Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation,The best soy latte that you ever had...and me"...

p/s - Actually I forgot to mentioned one more thing... SHE IS A VERY GOOD FREN!!!

GooD + BaD = LiFe...

I finally watched 'Transformers - Revenge of The Fallen' a couple of days ago with SiTa, AiDa and the kids... Yup, kids...a whole bunch of 'em. Let see, we got KaKaK, eZaNe, AbAnG and PePe (the twins) and KhALiS... It was fun...all of 'em mixed well wit me, but then again it was not really the first time we went out together. Who said being childish doesn't have its advantages... I've always mixed with kids better than adults cuz for me, it's easier... Most of 'em like the same thing I do...like for example, toys and Transformers. Hehehe.

I was really fun, KaKaK and eZaNe wuz wit SiTa, KhALiS wit his mummy, Aida...and the twins walked wit me... Uh, well...I've always wanted a set of twins... I walked with AbAnG on my right and PePe on my left, holdin' my hands and not lettin' it go... It made me feel like I have my own set of family wit me and taking 'em out for a movie-day outing... Wut joy!!! Some people might think I'm crazy...well, guess wut...I AM!!!(in my own way, of course). Pre- movie, they shared and finish an A&W Waffles and a big mug of Root Beer while KhALiS ate 5 outta 6 nuggets. He liked the Root Beer which wuz very concerning as he would get hyperactive when there's sugar involved... SUGAR-RUSH!!! Hehehe...

AiDa bought 'bout 5 big buckets popcorn and drinks for all of us...and KhALiS slept 'bout halfway through the movie. He still manages to watch Optimus gettin' killed before fallin' asleep. Ooppsss...did I accidentally spoiled the movies for the people who hasn't seen it? Ahh, who cares...... Yup, Optimus Prime was killed (a reminiscent of the original Transformers:The Movie back in 1986) but was resurrected again by the power of the Matrix of Leadership and was upgraded using some parts and the Spark from Jetfire. The movie wuz good and after we came out from the cinema, Sita confessed to me dat she is now officially a Transformers' fan. Even AiDa watched the first movie like 250 times (she actually counted it, no joke...).

After we sent the kids home, me and SiTa went to see KaK SiTi in the hospital as she wuz admitted cuz of...sumthin'... I dun really remember, and yes...she is allowed to smack me in the head for not rememberin' the reason...... Another bad news wuz SiTa's sister is admitted to the hospital also, due to appendix operation...or so they thought until the scan came back and the doctor detected some little cancer/tumor cells in her liver. To me, it's bad...really bad...... I've lost my grandma cuz of cancer and now my auntie has it. I hate it...a whole lot......

I'M BaCKKKKK!!!

A long time ago in galaxy far, far away...as usual...... Heh, it's been quite a while since I've updated anythin' in here. It's not dat I dun want to, but I dun have the (as always) time, and resources to do so... But not anymore...so, here goes nuthin'......

Remember when I said sumthin' 'bout buses, gettin' in for a ride...off to a new destination? Well, I juz got off the bus. I've arrived at a new place, one dat I've never been before... But I can still see some familiar features like private cubicled workspace, wide spaces to walk-about, private lockers, a high speed internet connection etc... Uh yeah, did I mention dat I get one of the most secluded place dat they have to offer? And I like it cuz I can to my work properly and there's nobody dictating wut I should or shouldn't do. Nobody's talkin' 'bout the bosses like they're some kinda 'GOD' and sayin' if the 'GOD' are not happy, you're screwed or some shit like dat... Nobody's trying to act like they own the fuckin' place and everybody else is 'the staff' or 'is still in training'... Nobody's cursing or use the word 'fuck' every 5 seconds... Nobody's sayin' dat they know everythin' 'bout anythin' and best of all...non of them is 'RELATED' *read it wit a smirk on your face, would ya... I meant to do dat...

But this cold place (literally, cold) could use a 'lil music...or at least I need it..... So, I'll bring the earphone...soon, very soon... Got myself a laptop, ID tag, season parkin' tag (FOR FREE!!!), new frenz... Well, everythin' goin' good so far... And there's the trainin'...which I'm lookin' foward to cuz there's a whole bunch of new stuff to learn!!! New system, new softwares, new people to meet or to talk to...even when it's only gonna officially starts next week. Ahhh, wut the hell...time flies...... It's a good thing dat dis place is very near to my house...so near dat I'm actually thinkin' of gettin' myself a bicycle..... Hehehehe... I do need the workouts, anyway.....

While I was 'on the bus', I was fortunate enuff to be helped by a few frenz dat I considered like my own 'familia' (which means 'family' in latin-spanish)... A million, no wait... a gazillion 'THANK YOU' to ZuL, ChAcK, KaK SiTi, SiTa and ALiCe 'ShOrTCaKe'...and also to Sifu Ben. Regardless of the help being in the form of monetary or advise. Thank you again... I'll buy you guys dinner when I get my first paycheck, ok...

SiMiLaRiTieS...

Uh, well... Some of you might realize dis, while some of you might not... All of us have more similarities than differences... Enjoy the clip... It's by the late George Carlin. One of the best comedian ever...

THe BuS iS HeRe...

It's time...I guess... for me to take a bus. Off to a new destination. If you read my previous entry here, you would understand wut I'm talkin' 'bout. I'm gonna miss the people I've met the bus stop... And speakin' 'out the people at the bus stop, I've reminded myself of some of them...

Wut ever happenned to ApAi, MaN, DeXTeR, KiMi, HaNie, Ali, JoAnnA, eZy, IbNu, HaRd RoCk, FaRaH, AnNe, AiNuL, AneeS, NuRuL, Fidot, KhaLif, MaNVir, eMi, ZuLee, DafI, Shizuka, HuDa, FaRah NajWa, BiG ShoW, J.B, ChUcKy, S.B, SaRiP DoL...and another whole bunch of 'em... There's so many dat I can't seem to remember their names at dis moment. Hmm....dat doesn't even includes my college buddies... NaS, MuTaRo, AjIs, AnAs, BaDrI, Atin, NuRuL, KeCiK, A'ad, ChoT, InTaN... I miss 'em all... Miss my time in the college... I can't even remember when was the last time I saw all of 'em... I wonder wut happenned to 'em all.

I wish I'm able to see all of them again... People from the college, the McD's crew dat I've worked wit, the lawyer's office, a certain person from a certain bookstore, from the lawyers office, the installer team in Ipoh and also the people from all the call centres dat I've been in to. Hmmm...KaRmA and the bus stop cycle..... Speakin' of wishes...it reminds me of the dream dat is suppose to come true' dis week... It's been put on hold...yet again. Uh, well...everything happens for a reason...dat's life.

I wanna take a vacation...to settle somethin'... But will I ever get a chance to do so???

I lie awake on a long, dark night
I can't seem to tame my mind
Slings and arrows are killing me inside
Maybe I can't accept the life that's mine
No maybe I can't accept the life that's mine
Simple living is my desperate cry
Been trading love with indifference
Yeah it suits me just fine
I try to hold on but I'm calloused to the bone
Maybe that's why I feel alone
Maybe that's why I feel so alone

The sun shines and I can't avoid the light
I think I'm holding on to life too tight
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Sometimes I feel like giving up yeah
I said sometimes I feel like giving up

The day reminds me of you
The night hides your truth
The earth is a voice
Speaking to you
Take all this pride
And leave it behind
Because one day it ends
One day we die
Believe what you will
That is your right
But I choose to win
I choose to fight
To fight

Cuz me, I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holdin' together
I'm covered with skin that peels and it just won't heal
I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holdin' together
I'm covered with skin that peels and it just won't
Covered with skin that peels and it just won't heal

Uh, yeah...I almost forgot one thing... IF ANY OF THe PeOPLe OUT THeRe DON'T LIKe WUTeVeR FUCK DAT I'M WRITIN' HeRe, BUZZ OFF!!! THIS FUCKIN' PAGe BeLONGS TO mE AND I'LL WRITe WUTeVeR I WANT IN HeRe...WHICH INCLUDeS CARS, TRANSFORMeRS OR ANYTHIN' AT ALL AND MOST IMPORTANTLY MY FReAKIN' LIFe!!!

DeADMAN out...until I feel like I wanna write sumthin' or anythin'...

LIFe 'n' DReAMZ

Dah lebih kurang sebulan aku tak update blog aku ni. Agak-agak busy ngan keje kat ofis. Hehehe... Letih pun, ye jugak. Ade la beberape bende yang jadi dalam masa sebulan tu. Cam, ade orang nak carik pasal ngan aku... Ye la, nak try naik kan tekanan darah aku dan ape saje yang sewaktu dengannya... Pastu plak, aku baru sedar yang aku ni cam terlalu baik ngan orang sampai banyak sangat yang pijak kepala... Ape kes?!?!?! So, aku ingat nak jadi balik cam dulu-dulu. Orang yang yang pedulik dengan bende lain kecuali diri aku sendiri.

Memang la jadi orang yang pentingkan diri sendiri ni tak berape elok, tapi kekadang tu...it's the only way. Bukannye aku tak sayang atau pedulik pasal orang lain, tapi sebanyak mane yang aku dah tengok dan lalui dalam idup aku ni...hampir semuanya akan makan diri aku balik. Bites me back in the ass, if you know wut I mean... Dan kebiasaannya, orang takkan sedar yang aku ni sayang dan ambik pedulik kat diorang until it's too late. Until the time comes for me to walk away to where the sun sets...

How do you look at life? No, seriously...how do you? Maybe some of you have heard the phrase, 'Life is like a box of chocolate. You'll never know wut you're gonna get.' Some of you might understand it...while some might not. To me...you can actually know wut you would get from a box of chocolate. The smallest one would be the one with raisins in it, while anythin' bigger than dat would have nuts in it... It's pretty simple to figure it out. Come to think 'bout it, life is not 'dat' hard at all. You wake up in the mornin', you go to work, take your 3 meals, get yourself a good shit and you go back to bed. Well, at least dat's one way of lookin' at it...rite?

To me, sometimes...I look at it dis way... Hmmm...at least once in our life, we have to get in to a bus...rite? But before we can get into the bus, we need to go to the bus stop or maybe a bus station. Have you ever sit at a bus stop, or a bus station and at the same time there are a few people waitin' too? And after a while a certain bus with a certain number would arrive and some of the people waitin' wit you will be gettin' into the bus...off to their destination...and there are people gettin' off the bus down to the bus stop. It happens over and over again until the day ends.

You might know some of the people who's waitin' wit you at the bus stop...and maybe sometimes you would be oblivious of other's presence at the same bus stop... You might talk to some of the people you meet there, or may help them in one way or another... And you might just brush some of them away... If you were to spend one day at the bus stop, you will get the chance to observe a lot of different types of people. There people from all sorts of backgrounds, from office workers to construction workers...from school kids to executives...young and old...poor and rich people too, believe it or not...You might meet people you would be friends with for life... I've experienced it myself...seriously...

Translate it onto your life... The bus stop is where your life is, right now. The people at the bus stop is the people you meet at dat point in your life. You dun know who you gonna meet next and in wut way you would meet them. And when the bus arrives, you get into it and move to another point of your life... As I said before...the cycle goes on and on. Over and over again until the day you die...

Dat's life to me. Dat's how I reflect the things we do everyday into my life... Not many people realize dis but, it's not easy bein' simple , you know...

Can't wait 'till the end of the month... Hehehe...a part of my dream will come true... Pray...pray really hard...

DeADMAN out...for now...

p/s - Really happy for Sita... Thing are looking up for her now. Her husband just passed the exam and dat means a lot to their families... Better life...

Time for them to soar above the sky... They've spend to much time on the ground and under it...

BeAUTIFUL LIe...aS aLwAyS...

Should have posted dis a long, long time ago...
All dis time...all the laughter...all the cries...all the happiness...all the pain...
All dis while...it's juz a beautiful lie...

Lie awake in bed at night, to think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The balance of your youth
Cuz' this is just a game

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
But i still look the same
Cuz' this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running 'round in circles
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's a perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
It's a beautiful, beautiful lie that makes me

STOP LYING, YOU MOTHeRFUCKeRS... STOP GIVIN' HOPe WHeN YOU YOURSeLF IS FUCKIN' HOPeLeSS... GeT THe FUCK OUT OF MY LIFe AND THe LIFe OF THe PeOPLe DAT I CARe ABOUT... ALWAYS BeING THeRe TO BACK YOU UP, TO PICK YOU UP WHEN YOU'Re DOWN, TO WIPe YOUR TeARS WHeN YOU CRY AND TO CAReSS YOU WHeN YOU NeeD IT MeANS NOTHING TO YOU!!! CUZ' YOU'Re TOO FUCKIN' BLIND TO See IT... YOU CARe MORe 'BOUT PeOPLe WHO MAKeS YOUR LIFe MISeRABLe...YOU CAN'T DIFFReNTIATe BeTWeeN THe PeOPLe WHO ReALLY CARES 'BOUT YOU AND THe PeOPLe WHO ONLY WANTS TO USe YOU FOR THeIR OWN BeNeFITS... OPeN YOUR eYeS AND See THe TRUTH...

It's ten percent luck...twenty percent skill...fifteen percent concentrated power of will. Five percent pleasure...fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name
ReMeMBeR Me...BLOOD SWeAT 'n' TeARS...

'TiLL ToTuS eS UnUs...

I dunno where to start... Let's try doin' sumthin' different for once, shall we... I've been wantin' do my blog in Latin. No, not your Spanish or Mexican kinda 'Latin'...it's the real kinda 'Latin', like the one dat's used for scientific names. Well, FYI...the word 'Dinosaur' is a Latin word...which means 'Terrible Thunder Lizards' in English. 'Panthera Tigris' is Latin for 'Tiger'. 'Panthera' is the Genus name and 'Tigris' is the Species name. Get my drift? If you dun, go and ask sumbody to smash your head wit a piece of heavy mining equipment and dun forget to tell them to see if you have anything inside your head. Askin' them to locate your brain would be a good start.

So, here goes...

Is est a fabula of a vir. A vir ut est jugiter in a pugna per sui. Is has been 27 annus utpote cepit suus primoris spiritus quod pro totus suus vita , is has nunquam vere adepto quis is votum plurrimi. Nemo have umquam asked him question pro. Quod fabula persevero insquequo is valde dies. Quod sit exspecto pro dies 'till totus es unus.

Well, I think dat should be enuff for now. Dun be a lazy prick and go and look for the online language translator, ok... Go ahead and 'google' it, will ya... Next time I'll try to do it in French or German. Hehehe...

This past week was quite boring. I've started drawin' again. Yes, I can draw...well, not many people know 'bout it. More like sketchin'...but my kinda sketchin' is more like "only I know wut the hell am I doin'" thing. Hey, I dun take up Majoring in Animation for nuthin', ok... I prefer to sketch and then transfer my idea directly from my brain (yes, I have dat too...FYI...) to my PC, well at least dat was wut I used to do. Dat's why I'm the only person who can understand my sketchin'... People could only see a couple of circles and some boxes, but to me it's a side profile of a car or a bike, depending on my mood at the time. Some people could see some lines or some unproportioned shapes, but I see a jet fighter. I used to 'draw' directly onto my PC using my 3D software. I've done things from cars to mechas...from bikes to my parents house. I did the layout and design for the renovation on my parent's house in Ipoh based on the original dimensions of the house. And it was approved by the City Council...and I'm not even a certified architect.

Hmmm...well, dat was then...now I'm juz trying to re-capture dat moment by drawin' or sketchin'...

YaNa gave me her sofa set last week and I bought a TV from SiTi...so, the house is now partially complete. Well at least at the living room area. Got myself a table to put the TV on and a coffe table too. SiTa is gonna buy me a bamboo mat at the end of the month as a "house-warmin'" gift thingy... Wutever dat means... Hehehe. But I really appreciate wut they've done for me so far... Thanks a lot sis...

Went out wit SiTa the other day after she invited me to 'lepak-lepak' wit her sister n cousinz... All of them can be described in 5 simple words... WACKY + BLUR...TO THE MAX. Hahaha... If there's a scale for blurness wit 10 being the most blur of all...the combination of them would be 20.5 minimum... But, to sum it up...they look young and we had fun...

On another note...MiYaKe, thanks for acceptin' my apology. Even when you said dat I didn't do anythin' wrong... We both know who we are to each other... Regardless of wut people might say...they can go take their head and stick it up their ass...

Another thing...AiDiL's band finally got a vocalist. ChAcK is the new vocalist for the team and dat leaves us with one issue...the NAME of he team... Any ideas, fellas?


I hear... a voice say "don't be so blind"...
It's telling me all these things...
That you would probably hide...
Am i... your one and only desire...
Am I the reason you breathe...
Or am I the reason you cry...

Always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess I'll pack all my things...
I guess I'll see you around...
Inside... it bottles up until now...
As I walk out your door...
All I hear is the sound...

Always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...

Always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I see... the blood all over your hands...
Does it make you feel... more like a man...
Was it all... just a part of your plan...
This pistol's shakin' in my hands...
And all I hear is the sound...

Always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
This life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
And now I'm done with you...

I'm done with you...

It's a song by Saliva...called 'Always'... The reason for dis song... Hmmmm...go figure.

THe WaTcHiN' eYeS...

I'm tired... I need a time off, from everythin'. So, as of today...I've planned to take a break. Maybe people would say, "Isn't it too early for me to take a break?"... Well, it is and it's not. It is too early for me to take a leave as I've only worked here for 'bout a couple of months and...... It is not too early for me cuz as far as I can remember, the last time I took a vacation was a year ago. And I really need it...seriously. But, as of now...I have still no idea on where on earth am I suppose to go...(if the leave is gonna be approved, anyway...)

Well, I've said sumthin' 'bout findin' a cliff with the ocean underneath it and the wide open sea as far as the eyes can see...but where is it!!! There's a high chance of possibility dat the place is sumwhere in Europe or maybe in U.S or it could be in Australia... I could even afford a decent meal sumtimes and now I'm thinkin' 'bout all this kinds of vacation spots!!! Sumbody please beat me up with a 2x4 for 'bout 30 to 40 times and dat might knock sum sense into me... It'll get the day rollin', ya know...

And hey, guess wut...the leave is not approved. Hah, should've seen dat comin' a mile away, man... It dun really matter anyway. I juz have to 'rest' wit my own way. Maybe see the good fren of mine, 'Mr. Door and Wall'...

After 2 and half long years...finally it cracked after I accidentally stepped on it after it fell in the bathtub last Sunday. It was so annoying cuz I had to drive back from Mersing dat same day. Yup, I didn't get a decent rest dis week. It's ok...comes wit the job anyway... Let's be on the sentimental side a bit for now, ok...2 and a half years with the same pair of spectacles...Good times...bad times...I see it all through the glasses. Frens...Foe...and everythin' in between.

So, on Monday I have to go and buy a new one. Went out wit Sita during our lunch hour. Found dis frame wit black and silver rims 'round the glasses. Well, black and silver is my favourite colour...not to mention gray and a touch of red. Sita said it looks good and not like my old glasses dat made me look like a school teacher. Hahaha...

Anyway, it only took them 'bout a couple of hours for the glasses to be ready, which is very fast... So, before the day ends, sumwhere 'round 6...they called and told me dats it's done. Wanna see it? Come and see me...

I dun know wut else to write here, for now... Just tired and sumbody did sumthin' behind my back. I know and I'm pissed... Hey, watch out..cuz I'm watchin' you. Always look over your shoulder cuz I might juz appear and stab you right between your eyes...

DeADMAN...out......for now.

DReAMZ - ReVISITeD...

I was quite bored dis past weekend. Took out my largest Transformers, The Masterpice Optimus Prime.. Looked at it and reminded myself how long it took me to gather enuff money to bought it. It costs me 1.5k, man...by far the most expansive Transformers dat I've bought, ever... Then, I took out the other Transformers dat I have wit me. I got the whole set of Autobots dat appeared in the live-action movie back in 2007. Optimus Prime, Jazz, Rachet, Ironhide and of course...Bumblebee. The sequel will be comin' out June dis year. Can't wait to see it. I've watched 2 of the trailers and damn...it's cool. They have the Constructicons and in the original series, they are one of the largest Decepticon. But later in the series, the Decepticon would create the bigger Trypticon and such. But seeing it in the live-action trailer was damn excitin'. They've also expanded on the Autobot regiment. There are gonna be Skids, Tracks, Jolt, and Sideswipe...and Sideswipe is a freakin' Corvette Stingray Concept car!!! It's FUCKIN' COOL!!!

It was only a matter of time until I took out my whole collection of Transformers and started on the cleanin' spree wit it... Then I noticed dat the only Decepticon in my collection was Barricade and Frenzy. Heh, the reason I bought Barricade was cuz he's a Ford Mustang and Frenzy transformed into the intercooler. Come to think 'bout it, all of the Autobot in the live-action movie are land vehicle, namely...cars, SUVs and a truck. Optimus Prime is a Peterbilt Truck Cab, Jazz is a customized Hard-top Pontiac Solstice, Ratchet is a Hummer H2 Rescue vehicle, Ironhide is a GMC pick-up truck and Bumblebee was a 2007 Chevy Camaro.

And being a car FReAK like me...obviously I would love 'em all. Hey, who wouldn't...the top of the range Ford Mustang Shelby GT500KR churns out 540 bhp!!! And a Camaro, which is in the same category of 'Pony Cars' like the Mustang pumps out more or less the same horse power from its V8 engine. But Barricade is a Saleen Mustang. Saleen, Shelby and Roush are three of the best Ford aftermarket customizers and tuners. Saleen and Shelby focused more on Mustang while Roush will tune both Mustang and the F-150 Ford Pick-up. The Shelby Cobra GT500KR is also used as the new KITT in Knight Rider. I have to admit dat my dream car is the Ford Mustang. But hey, I love all the muscle cars...such as Dodge's Challenger, Charger and Viper...Chrysler's Hemicuda and Barracuda...Mercury's Cougar... Chevy's Corvette and Camaro...not forgettin' Pontiac's GTO and of course...Ford's Mustang and Grand Torino. To me...all of 'em defines the era where the average income people can afford to have a power-house in their garage and be proud of it. To tell you the truth, I juz love the '69 Shelby Cobra Mustang. Yup, the same one dat they used in Steve McQueens' 'Bullit' and Nicholas Cage's 'Gone in 60 Seconds'. For the record, in the movie 'Gone in 60 Seconds' the car is called 'Eleanor'...and she's damn hot!!!

But, unfortunately...living in this country where TAX is everythin'...only a handfull of people would be able to afford those kind of cars... Juz imagine dis, a basic Ford Mustang with a V6, 2.4 litres engine dat gives 'bout 210 to 240 bhp cost 'bout 20K in the U.S now. If we convert dat to the normal Malaysian Ringgit dat would be around 60K, which would be a direct competition with Honda's City, Toyota's Vios and Proton's own Persona...and all of dis is a 4 to 6 cylinders, 1.5 to 1.6 litres, 120 to 150 bhp family sedan. But, as I mentioned before...in a country where TAX is everythin'...the same Ford Mustang would cost 'bout 150k to 200k minimum!!! All cuz the import duty, road tax and insurance which obviously is a different category altogether... Damn...sumtimes I feel dat in this country, the rich will keep on gettin' richer and the poor will get worse by the day. No offense...it's not like I dun love my country or appreciate wut the government have provided us wit, all these years but dis kind of stupid AP and ridiculous taxes HAVE GOT TO GO!!! Dis country is suppose to start the AFTA thingy a long time ago...but they only begin to implement it recently. AFTA stand for Asean Free Trade Zone...which in one way or another would allow people to buy better cars at a cheaper price... Even when they have implemented dis...they increases the tax for imported cars so dat the local car-makers wouldn't have any direct competition and they would sell more cars. It's sad to say dat Malaysian local car-makers mis-used dis and keep givin' us under-powered, problematic cars... But, I'm happy to see dat they are improvin'...quite a lot. And I'm still waitin' for the next generation of PUTRA!!!

RiZaL asked me the other day wit a very interestin' question... "Did you in one way or another showed to H dat you are interested in joinin' West Coast Customs?"... Hmmmm... I was puzzled when he asked me dis. In a way... I told RiZaL dat...YES, I AM INTERESTED IN JOININ' 'EM!!! It would be a dream come true for me. The reason RiZaL asked me dis is cuz I've told H dat I'm a car FReAK and would like to visit the WCC shop. Uh, yeah... I forget to metioned dat H IS ALSO THE OWNER OF WEST COAST CUSTOMS MALAYSIA!!! To you numbnuts out there...WCC is one of the most famous car customizers and tuners in U.S...They are the one behind MTV's Pimp My Ride, but I have to admit dat sumtimes the customizations are a bit over the top. I would prefer if RiZaL or H would ask me if I would like CHIP FOOSE TO DESIGN AND BUILD A CAR FOR ME...but dat's juz pushin' the envelop too far...Hehehehe... But seriously, Chip Foose's HeMISFeAR is FUCKIN' COOL!!! It's fun imaginin' me in the WCC uniforms...Hahaha...

Ok, back to the matter at hand now... I did asked H if I could go and visit the shop one day and told him dat I wanna learn as much as possible. I dun care if they asked me to polish up the damn piston heads...I'll do it!!! I told RiZaL dat I'm very, very interested in cars and would be more than happy if I could make it a way of makin' a livin'... I told RiZaL dat if I were to meet H earlier in my life...most probably I wont be workin' wit all my previous company. Cars are my passion and gettin' paid to do the job dat you enjoy is every human's dream... But, hey...seeing dat I'm already workin' with H as my boss in dis company makes my 'YES, I'M INTERESTED IN JOININ', ONE WAY OR ANOTHER" doesn't seem dat good... It's quite complicated for me to explain why... And sadly enuff, for a guy dat says cars is his passion...I'm drivin' a rather sad lookin' car and I dun even have enuff money to properly take care of it. I only wash it once a month, the engine is sumtimes overdue for services and even the air-conditionin' fails sumtimes... Uh, well...it could get worst, but THANK GOD...it didn't...

Heh, RiZaL might beat me up for writin' dis in my blog... Sorry bro...Hehehe. I have to...cuz the question you asked was very, very interestin'... Like I told you, it would be a dream come true for me. When you asked me dat question, a part of my dream came true. Thanks, bro... Thanks for makin' this average guy's dream come true, even when it was only a part of it. I really appreciate dat...

I have to say dat by far... dis would be the longest blog entry dat I've made...ever... Sorry if you're too tired or gettin' bored wit me talkin' 'bout cars most of the time...

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

DReAM On - AeROSMITH

HONeSTY 'N' eXHaUSTIoN

Feels like the old days...Me, alone...broke...and putting others before me...as usual...... Well, unfortunately the last part is a habit of mine dat sumtimes...comes back and open up a can of whoop-ass on me. To sum it up, lets juz say dat I might be comin' to work, walkin'... I've walked back home so, walkin' to the office wouldn't be a problem...I think...

I'm sick...sick of people dat write cheques their mouth can't cash...sick of impostors and pretenders...sick of liars, sick of it all. Maybe they are the reason why GOD created the MIDDLe FINGeR!!! I dun even know wut to write here... I think dat I'm back at the lowest point in my life. Well, maybe it's cuz I'm broke, again...and I'm damn pissed.

Off all the things dat I hate, liars is probably on top of the list. I juz dun understand why people would lie... Is it so hard to juz tell the truth? Is it so hard to be a man or a woman and be honest. Two lies won't make a right. IS IT SO FUCKIN' HARD? IT COULDN'T BE AS HARD AS YOUR OWN FUCKIN' DICK, IF YOU HAVE ONE, ANYWAY!!! COME TO THINK' BOUT IT, YOU WOULDN'T KNOW CUZ IF YOU HAVE A FUCKIN' COCK, YOU WOULDN'T LIE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! DO YOU WANT SUMBODY TO SHOVE YOUR HEAD UP YOUR ASS AND THEN THINK 'BOUT BEING FUCKIN' HONEST?!?! Seriously I'm not the type of person who would be easily pissed off. BUt I'm the type dat would accumulate all my hatred, my anger, my dissatisfaction and keep it in myself and then I'll explode. Juz pray dat you're not gonna be anywhere near me at dat time cuz it's gonna be bad. I'm literally a walkin' time-bomb.

In another topic, I need to do sumthin' 'bout my presentation. Gotta start doin' sumthin' dat I've been doin' before dis in my previous presentation...BEIN' MY-FREAKIN'-SELF. Even RiZaL and YaNa was wonderin' wut the hell happened to me when I'm givin' the presentation to the people the other day. One day I was OK and the next was so damn borin' dat even I hated myself for it. RiZaL told me dat I might not be a 'GReAT' trainer but nevertheless, I was damn 'eFFeCTIVe' up to a point dat even he was confused why there was a writing on the whiteboard inside the Training Room dat says 'WE LOVE HALL-AIM' when both of us was in our previous company.

Hey, I might be a failure, a great disappointment and a bad role model in the eyes of others...but I'm sure as hell know dat everybody have their own strength and weaknesses and I'm doin' all I can to improve on dat. Well maybe sum people might not be able to see dat, but anyway...as long as I'm being honest to myself, it's good enuff for me. Like a wiseman once said 'KEJUJURAN PADA DIRI SENDIRI UNTUK APA DIPERSEMBAHKAN KEPADA MEREKA YANG TAK PUNYA PERASAAN. KITA ADA NILAI TERSENDIRI. BIARKAN MEREKA YANG TERSASUL, BERKATA EGO MENEPUK DADA. SEMANGAT DISIMPAN SELAGI ADA KESEMPATAN HIDUP BERSAMA. APALAH ADA PADA KEINDAHAN JIKA JIWA KITA MERONTA-RONTA...' Sum people might recognize those words...good for you.

I think it's 'bout time for me to take a vacation. Oddly enuff, ZuLee and WaN was thinkin' the same thing too. All I can say is all 3 of us is extremely tired. The last time I took a vacation was 'bout a year ago. Normally it should be twice a year. I'm still wonderin' where to go, though. I have no idea for the time being. I've always imagined dat I could find a place, or a cliff with the ocean underneath it, and I could see the ocean as far out as I can. I'll stand on top of the cliff and scream my lungs out. Dat would be very, very relievin'... Well, I won't shout the corny movie lines like, 'I'm the king of the world' or 'I love you' or wutever. I'll shout, 'Stick it up your ass-full-of-shit, you crazy cocksuckin', cunt eatin', tit lickin', ass kissin', piss drinkin' motherfuckers.' Hahaha...dat would be fun...... Hey, I've juz used the 7 words dat you can't say on TV. Cool...

3 GiRLS, a GuY and tHe OFFICe...

Ok... Since everybody is in the "APPReCIATIN'" mood...... Here goes nuthin'... Presentin'... 3 SuPeR DuPeR crazy ass, motherfuckin', creepy-ish, dirty, bottom-feedin', trashbag HOOOssss......





From the left... SiTa tHe StUpId WhORe

Favorite Quote :- Simply toooo many to list down here... My blog is gonna be censored if I list it here, dammit!!!
English Accent :- ReDNeCK HiLLBiLLy STYLe
Favourite Movie :- 300 (juz cuz Gerald Butler's tight abs...du'uhhh!!!)
Hobbies :- Insultin' me from the start of the day to the end... She only lasted 3 fuckin' hours without insultin' me. Even I was disturbed whe she actually controlled herself from 'f-ing' me the whole day. Uh, yeah...she's always urging me to get laiddddd.......
Callin' Card :- StUpId WhORe!!! (something dat aLiCe would always forget, cuz she'll be askin'... 'SiTa is wut whore again, aaa???'...


Next... aLiCe tHe NuTTy ShoRtCaKe

Favourite Quote :- FUCK YOU, OLD CRAP!!! (wit a annoyin' high pitch sound)
English Accent :- MaNgLiSh loorrr......
Favorite Movie :- I have no idea...(dat's not the title of the movie!!!)
Hobbies :- Callin' everybody either "An Old Crap!" or "You Bad People!!!". The only nice thing dat I would say to her is 'Good Morning, Alice!!!!'...and 2 seconds later I would tell her to jump out the window and DIe!!!!. Hahaha...
Callin' Card :- CrAppY ShOrTCaKe!!!


And last but not least... The one, the only... YaNa tHe SluTTy BiTcH

Favorite Quote :- FUCKER RAMU LAAA!!! (and I'm still wonderin', who is dis Ramu guy aaa?)
English Accent :- juz like SiTa...the ReDNeCK HiLLBiLLy thingy. Du'uH!!!!!
Favourite Movie :- Well, she have been waiting for 'Friends:The Movie'all her life... Hey...MOVE ON!!!
Hobbies :- Like everybody in the office, she finds joy in insulting me from the start to the end of the day...
Callin' Card :- BiTcH!!!

So, there we have it... the 3 numbnuts dat I have to put up with, everyday in the office. Uh, yeah...the guy there is also one crazy S.O.B. Let's not talk 'bout him, he's boringgg... But the good thing is, Yana said dat the guy can dish out as much as he can take it...insults, dat is...

DeADMAN out for now... Been busy lately, so can't really concentrate on updatin' the blog. I'll update again once I have the chance to do so. There's a lot dat I need to let loose from my system.