Should have posted dis a long, long time ago...
All dis time...all the laughter...all the cries...all the happiness...all the pain...
All dis while...it's juz a beautiful lie...
Lie awake in bed at night, to think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The balance of your youth
Cuz' this is just a game
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
But i still look the same
Cuz' this is just a game
Everyone's looking at me
I'm running 'round in circles
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game
It's a beautiful lie
It's a perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
It's a beautiful, beautiful lie that makes me
STOP LYING, YOU MOTHeRFUCKeRS... STOP GIVIN' HOPe WHeN YOU YOURSeLF IS FUCKIN' HOPeLeSS... GeT THe FUCK OUT OF MY LIFe AND THe LIFe OF THe PeOPLe DAT I CARe ABOUT... ALWAYS BeING THeRe TO BACK YOU UP, TO PICK YOU UP WHEN YOU'Re DOWN, TO WIPe YOUR TeARS WHeN YOU CRY AND TO CAReSS YOU WHeN YOU NeeD IT MeANS NOTHING TO YOU!!! CUZ' YOU'Re TOO FUCKIN' BLIND TO See IT... YOU CARe MORe 'BOUT PeOPLe WHO MAKeS YOUR LIFe MISeRABLe...YOU CAN'T DIFFReNTIATe BeTWeeN THe PeOPLe WHO ReALLY CARES 'BOUT YOU AND THe PeOPLe WHO ONLY WANTS TO USe YOU FOR THeIR OWN BeNeFITS... OPeN YOUR eYeS AND See THe TRUTH...
It's ten percent luck...twenty percent skill...fifteen percent concentrated power of will. Five percent pleasure...fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name
ReMeMBeR Me...BLOOD SWeAT 'n' TeARS...
BeAUTIFUL LIe...aS aLwAyS...
'TiLL ToTuS eS UnUs...
I dunno where to start... Let's try doin' sumthin' different for once, shall we... I've been wantin' do my blog in Latin. No, not your Spanish or Mexican kinda 'Latin'...it's the real kinda 'Latin', like the one dat's used for scientific names. Well, FYI...the word 'Dinosaur' is a Latin word...which means 'Terrible Thunder Lizards' in English. 'Panthera Tigris' is Latin for 'Tiger'. 'Panthera' is the Genus name and 'Tigris' is the Species name. Get my drift? If you dun, go and ask sumbody to smash your head wit a piece of heavy mining equipment and dun forget to tell them to see if you have anything inside your head. Askin' them to locate your brain would be a good start.
So, here goes...
Is est a fabula of a vir. A vir ut est jugiter in a pugna per sui. Is has been 27 annus utpote cepit suus primoris spiritus quod pro totus suus vita , is has nunquam vere adepto quis is votum plurrimi. Nemo have umquam asked him question pro. Quod fabula persevero insquequo is valde dies. Quod sit exspecto pro dies 'till totus es unus.
Well, I think dat should be enuff for now. Dun be a lazy prick and go and look for the online language translator, ok... Go ahead and 'google' it, will ya... Next time I'll try to do it in French or German. Hehehe...
This past week was quite boring. I've started drawin' again. Yes, I can draw...well, not many people know 'bout it. More like sketchin'...but my kinda sketchin' is more like "only I know wut the hell am I doin'" thing. Hey, I dun take up Majoring in Animation for nuthin', ok... I prefer to sketch and then transfer my idea directly from my brain (yes, I have dat too...FYI...) to my PC, well at least dat was wut I used to do. Dat's why I'm the only person who can understand my sketchin'... People could only see a couple of circles and some boxes, but to me it's a side profile of a car or a bike, depending on my mood at the time. Some people could see some lines or some unproportioned shapes, but I see a jet fighter. I used to 'draw' directly onto my PC using my 3D software. I've done things from cars to mechas...from bikes to my parents house. I did the layout and design for the renovation on my parent's house in Ipoh based on the original dimensions of the house. And it was approved by the City Council...and I'm not even a certified architect.
Hmmm...well, dat was then...now I'm juz trying to re-capture dat moment by drawin' or sketchin'...
YaNa gave me her sofa set last week and I bought a TV from SiTi...so, the house is now partially complete. Well at least at the living room area. Got myself a table to put the TV on and a coffe table too. SiTa is gonna buy me a bamboo mat at the end of the month as a "house-warmin'" gift thingy... Wutever dat means... Hehehe. But I really appreciate wut they've done for me so far... Thanks a lot sis...
Went out wit SiTa the other day after she invited me to 'lepak-lepak' wit her sister n cousinz... All of them can be described in 5 simple words... WACKY + BLUR...TO THE MAX. Hahaha... If there's a scale for blurness wit 10 being the most blur of all...the combination of them would be 20.5 minimum... But, to sum it up...they look young and we had fun...
On another note...MiYaKe, thanks for acceptin' my apology. Even when you said dat I didn't do anythin' wrong... We both know who we are to each other... Regardless of wut people might say...they can go take their head and stick it up their ass...
Another thing...AiDiL's band finally got a vocalist. ChAcK is the new vocalist for the team and dat leaves us with one issue...the NAME of he team... Any ideas, fellas?
I hear... a voice say "don't be so blind"...
It's telling me all these things...
That you would probably hide...
Am i... your one and only desire...
Am I the reason you breathe...
Or am I the reason you cry...
Always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess I'll pack all my things...
I guess I'll see you around...
Inside... it bottles up until now...
As I walk out your door...
All I hear is the sound...
Always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...
Always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I see... the blood all over your hands...
Does it make you feel... more like a man...
Was it all... just a part of your plan...
This pistol's shakin' in my hands...
And all I hear is the sound...
Always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
This life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
And now I'm done with you...
I'm done with you...
It's a song by Saliva...called 'Always'... The reason for dis song... Hmmmm...go figure.
THe WaTcHiN' eYeS...
I'm tired... I need a time off, from everythin'. So, as of today...I've planned to take a break. Maybe people would say, "Isn't it too early for me to take a break?"... Well, it is and it's not. It is too early for me to take a leave as I've only worked here for 'bout a couple of months and...... It is not too early for me cuz as far as I can remember, the last time I took a vacation was a year ago. And I really need it...seriously. But, as of now...I have still no idea on where on earth am I suppose to go...(if the leave is gonna be approved, anyway...)
Well, I've said sumthin' 'bout findin' a cliff with the ocean underneath it and the wide open sea as far as the eyes can see...but where is it!!! There's a high chance of possibility dat the place is sumwhere in Europe or maybe in U.S or it could be in Australia... I could even afford a decent meal sumtimes and now I'm thinkin' 'bout all this kinds of vacation spots!!! Sumbody please beat me up with a 2x4 for 'bout 30 to 40 times and dat might knock sum sense into me... It'll get the day rollin', ya know...
And hey, guess wut...the leave is not approved. Hah, should've seen dat comin' a mile away, man... It dun really matter anyway. I juz have to 'rest' wit my own way. Maybe see the good fren of mine, 'Mr. Door and Wall'...
After 2 and half long years...finally it cracked after I accidentally stepped on it after it fell in the bathtub last Sunday. It was so annoying cuz I had to drive back from Mersing dat same day. Yup, I didn't get a decent rest dis week. It's ok...comes wit the job anyway... Let's be on the sentimental side a bit for now, ok...2 and a half years with the same pair of spectacles...Good times...bad times...I see it all through the glasses. Frens...Foe...and everythin' in between.
So, on Monday I have to go and buy a new one. Went out wit Sita during our lunch hour. Found dis frame wit black and silver rims 'round the glasses. Well, black and silver is my favourite colour...not to mention gray and a touch of red. Sita said it looks good and not like my old glasses dat made me look like a school teacher. Hahaha...
Anyway, it only took them 'bout a couple of hours for the glasses to be ready, which is very fast... So, before the day ends, sumwhere 'round 6...they called and told me dats it's done. Wanna see it? Come and see me...
I dun know wut else to write here, for now... Just tired and sumbody did sumthin' behind my back. I know and I'm pissed... Hey, watch out..cuz I'm watchin' you. Always look over your shoulder cuz I might juz appear and stab you right between your eyes...
DeADMAN...out......for now.